what i had in mind... recaptured

I had this headache thinking about things that happened around me lately. Apparently i'm growing a little wiser than before, i think my judgement over things has improved.. i just hope that some people would understand some law of the nature but unfortunately they don't.

the 1st law..
believe in miracles, if you believe there is God, you have to believe in miracles too.. miracles happened to me EVERYDAY... sometimes left me gaping (yeah its ugly) thinking about what just happened.. it could be anything.. anything at all..miracles happened to me yesterday when i hit a guy's new honda city bumper and he just say.. "pi blah la" uhh that's about it?the bumper was quite bad.. and he just let me go?? what a lucky day!!!

2nd law
what you give you will get back..
no matter if its money, or material.. or time or handbags.. shoes.. or you give people a heart ache or a broken heart (which is two different things altogether)you will get back.. GOD have his own way to work on things, sometimes you even have to pay in CASH.. i believe in this too.. Where do you think the word KARMA came from??

3rd law
it is a bit confusing when you dont know what you want in your life and why you want it. i know exactly what i want. i know how to get there. there are obstacles along the way (no doubts) that i need to do constant changes in my plans of reaching the ULTIMATE goals.. "do what you like most and do it the best you can".. i know what i like, i know what my expertise is.. i know what i want to achieve in life.. i have my future plans written in a BIG BOOK that i reviewed often.. (this is since schooldays, i am very practical but at the same time emotional that is why i need to anchor my foundation into something.. and i have achieved almost all that i stated on the list.. thank GOD!)

4th law
Think BIG but be humble.. If you want to be rich, you must not only think of how to be rich but why do you want to be rich and what you will do when you are rich.. Rich must not only be monetary but also rich at heart, if your heart is full of all the wicked and unthinkable feelings, you will only bring more harm than good .. its odd but some people despise it when others are doing better especially when they are not doing that well.. the smirks, the unnecessary remarks.. they simply loathe it.. (but they deserve to feel that way because they feel offended and insecure..so much of complications in their lives that they only have limited resources to make ends meet.. ) its negative energy for you.. the next thing you know you would be thinking why your business suddenly not making any profit.. the well off would come out with a lot of reason to opposed this kind of thinking but we have to think of others feelings too, dont tell your your x-classmate that your are wearing a rm50K ring when the only ring she know is her rm50 FAKE diamond. so i'd say its better to stay humble.. share of your secret love life instead.. people love to hear gossips.. flourished them with what they want to hear..

5th law..
life is like a wheel.. you will come up and you will go down.. put that in mind.. when a lot of people despise you, you will come down sooner.. dont boast too much ok.. i hate it other people hate it too..

6th..
talk less especially of what you do unless you are being asked.. some people dont like it.. birds of a feathers flock together.. so talk more if only you feel the person communicating with you are comfortable of the topic.. especially when it involve business..dont talk about perfumes when you are meeting a sewer engineer? or should you??

7th
respect others, especially the elderly.. they will pray for you.. their prayers are sacred!! Trust me.. and respect others for their differences in life perspectives.. respect the fact that people have different views on the simplest things.. they have their own reason to think as they do.. you might be thinking out off the box but i already thinking out off the atmosphere.. when you say you are good because you could think 5 steps ahead.. other people could think 101 steps ahead and is proven in history.. i know because somebody read this to me.. he is a general from one of the china empire.. somehow i forgot his name..

8th
Give more but to those who really appreciates.. its a win-win you feel happy and blessed because you could help others, and they feel happy because you simply make their day.. how to differentiate? you could never go wrong with the genuine respond from body language.. i once gave my precious trousers that i bought with the money i saved during schooldays to somebody, it was new i love it so much but i have to give it away because it doenst fit my "new figure".. only to find out that person use it as a foot wipe.. my heart filled with tears.. that is all i could say.

9th
read a lot.. i promised myself to buy a book for every pair of shoes that i bought.. and now i ended up buying more books and less shoes, books are expensive (but you could get tax rebate) at the same time the lesson you get from every book is priceless.. reading is the best source of referrence for anything under the sky.. either its rocket science, metaphysics, fitness, food, sex.. u name it.. it does wonders to my mind and my perspective of life..

10th
LOVE yourself know your limit
The only person i want to impress is MYSELF (i'm surely lying through my teeth), whatever i do.. its none of your business.. i have my OWN AGENDA and PLANNING on things.. (this is somehow true)
some people say it is better to take baby steps than to sprint and pass out after the 1st 100m.. if you want to win GOLD medal for running GO AHEAD! i will do long jump instead.. and i know definitely i could win GOLD too.. no point going after the same thing when there is a lot more to do, apart from what you are doing.. GET IT?

11th..
do what your heart tells you to do.. but don't do it if it is against your conscience.. so i'd say do what your heart tells you to do with a strong foundation and life principles.. spread your wings and fly to the "right destination".. do you even know that all the birds fly with a destination in mind? its the law of the nature.. simple but true.. we must have a purpose in life.. i know mine but do you know yours? QUESTION?? after college, marriage, kids, starting a biz then what next???i'm smiling.. i only have to figure out how to get there.. using the road less traveled (far, unkempt, quiet.. less people.. )or the road with massive congestion which is of course the short cut that will caught me in misery (who love traffic jams anyway?)

12th..
thank GOD.. believe in GOD.. ask for help.. ask for guidance.. be thankfull.. all the time.. everywhere.. GOD knows every answer to every question.. i'm not a preacher but i know whatever i do, without GOD consent, i will only be in a vacuum.. lost..without any direction.. with no guidance..

when the word BIBIK is "mistakenly" abused

One thing about "bibik", My late Maternal Grandfather is a Javanese, and he speaks Java of course.. and the few words we inherited from him is Bibik and Paman (stands for aunts and uncle as in Mak Long, Pak Long, Mak Ngah, Mak Teh bla..bla as normal Malays community would use).

I understand that a lot of people been using Bibik to refer to their Indonesian Maids, u see.. it is kind of disturbs me though because it doesnt convey the exact meaning... i'm not being overrated when i say i kind of offended because i'm obviously a Bibik too, since that i have a niece now.

The right word to use is, Nanny or what is wrong for using maids instead? i have 7 BIBIKS, and i love them all.. and of course they are my aunts, my mom's female siblings. not Maids.. its kind of hurt my sensitivity. Thats all. Unless you are treating them as one of your aunts, which is with respect and love by all means call them  bibik, they deserves the title. You dont simply refer your Mak Teh as your maids aren't u?

Maybe you guys just aren't aware..  Some Javanese descendance might have agreed with me... Aren't you. Am i saying the wrong thing?

why is everybody so excited?

Sorang dapat 100, kalau satu kereta, dapat 500 sekali dgn duit minyak..  wahhh??? that is what i'm getting a month for the thing i did..  no wonder la ramai sgt yg join.. duit buta..

My youngest brother got rm50 for joining the rally in Penang last week, he even asked me to join him, not just me but also my hubby that came back for his 2 weeks break.

My bro says: "apa la Kak, bukan buat apa pun, berdiri saja dapat rm50, kalau buat hal sket dapat byk lagi la"

And i was thinking: Oh No!! However if I really go, gave a lil bit of drama at the scene (since i'm a drama queen) I could even get my PRADA sunglasses, earlier than expected...  J.. But when I think again, with my blond hair and all, the whole Malaysia would see me. I’m very recognizable! (Unless I put on the veil)

But i was busy doing something else that night… I decided to spend time with my little nucleus family, and it was priceless!

The conclusion is, everyone was so excited because of the easy money, and don't you guys realized something? Where is Anwar? i tot he is supposed to be the "corrupt" opposition leader.. is it Adil for those who got stuck in the massive traffic jam, who couldn’t even met their mothers in the hospitals, on the way to their own wedding?? Important business deals, what happened if somebody wants to give birth? So would it be BABY BERSIH BORN IN TRAFFIC JAM?? That lucky little baby would make a headline in MERTO the next day, no doubt.

Oh come on... Our leaders, despite of their differences in political backgrounds, some of them were from the same school, from the same class, the same dorm, even share the same room…they do business together, they have coffee together in 5 stars hotels, their children are sent to the best school there is in the world.. They mingle around in luxurious parties cruising in their posh cars, and they are laughing at us. And say. “look fellas, our rakyat are so stupid" blimey! why do we have to fights and make sulky faces with each other. for a mere 100? is that the price of your pride? Oh Come on..

I totally understand this, i have friends from all walks of life, i used to have roommates that is so different from me, somehow i tot we were from different planets, for them i am too "outrageous hard to control and over the top person” they ever met. But we were there for each other when in need…as for example, my very pious wearing long hijab roommate in Harapan who is now a Doctor serving in Kuantan, had to reply a “yell” from my then boyfriend when he was looking for me. He has to yell my name everytime he came over my block, because we were on the 3^rd floor, yeah people do get pissed (because we were kind of an annoying couple, being labelled as Romi and Julie in our lectures, we always got caught getting into trouble.. silly college flings i guess) but my room mate, She had to yell back to him at the top of her lung to tell if I was not in the room and not able to answer him. Cellphones? i almost thought that  they never existed or they were only for well of people at that time i guess, I don’t even think my lecturers have it back then… OK You wouldn’t believe she did that the yelling thing, at normal time, she is a very shy person.  Definitely she and her whole family came from a very different political background. I owe her big time.

I still remember a male classmate when I was doing my MSc, very close friend since we were the only two person from our BS class decided to continue studying, he is now a lecturer in Perak, never fail to put on his “Kopiah”. He once told me out of blue when we were standing at the corridor of Bilik Persidangan HBP, “Martina, kalaulaa aku bawak hang balik jumpa mak aku, mesti dia pengsan, tapi bila dah lama kita kenal, rupa-rupanye hang budak baik" I said “oh plslaa wey, jahat sgt ke aku nih?” and i laught  at him.. this guy won’t even sit with me on the passenger  front seat, even though there were only the 2 of us in the car, he would sit at the back while I'm driving (to avoid fitnah, he would say) . He is the one who will express what he thought at point blank, sometimes he tend to hurts me, (mulut dia mmg laser tak hengat la), but when I think back, with me having blond hair, and the improper dresscode for somebody like him, and the amount of other offensive behavior (for him) I might have caused, it is kind of balance out things between us. But we were still friends and I respect him.. he still kids me around if he had the chance to do it.. everyone does this to me, maybe because i am so approachable that they feel so comfortable making silly jokes out of me. Good old times. :)

Iwell, actually I’m writing this because,  while I’m still in my early 30’s, I still have good connection with everyone, and when one day when I’m older and when I’m ready mentally and financially, I’d would love to join into politics, no matter how dirty it is. Politics is dirty but somebody has to do the dirty job somehow. I just want everybody to be happy and live peacefully together.  

My background consist of a wide spectrum, multiracial school, interracial marriages among family members, Multilanguage community etc … In a way it has taught me to be more receptive towards others.

I once told my friend, (my buddy who is a diehard Puteri UMNO member) that I had an offer from somebody to be his political secretary in the opposition party and I really hope that this kind of things won’t ruin our friendship in the long run. I asked my soul mate the same thing because it might somehow or rather hurt his career in the future but he is fine with it. My supervisor, who is also my mentor, who helped me with everything he could was so frustrated with his former political comrades, and now is very happy with our new leader and the obvious changes that he made.  After all, it is not the Party, it is not the rally, it is not the movement or anything like that, but it is actually the person who leads. Poise and charismatic, cool and soft spoken yet stern, low profile but full of powerful aura and of course handsome if God permits… won’t our hearts will just melt for this guy. He would get the majority votes from the woman and not forgetting the gays around. I’m just kidding. No offence, but seriously, we are in need of this person. Where the hell are you?

Deep inside, I pray so hard that this man will eventually appear from somewhere and just took over everything, he who really loves his country won’t even allow any chaotic scene that would hurt the masses of people. This person wouldn’t have bad mouthed, or sabotage anyone to raise popularity. The people will do the talking. Politics is just like business, if your product or service is good, you don’t have waste a fortune for the marketing. It will work on its own.

And we will live happily ever after, just like the fairy tales…